I’m feeling that way lately.  Change oriented also. I’m feeling the urge to make many changes.  I spend a lot of time posting on a forum with people who actually relate to me, and it has made me realize quite a few patterns in my life. I never really paid much attention to my moods in the past because the thought that my mood had anything to do with this mess hadn’t crossed my mind.  But now that I think back; my moods were fluctuating constantly, and based on how I was “feeling” at the time I would run or move.

All of this realization has made me feel overwhelmed. Especially because I’m feeling the urge to make all these changes, and I’m content with where I live. I love my husband more than anything and we aren’t unhappy with each other at all. The only things I can think of that I’m really unhappy with is my job and myself in a physical sense, and I’m working on the job aspect.

The physical thing will always be a battle, I’m not very accepting of myself.