I’m feeling that way lately. Change oriented also. I’m feeling the urge to make many changes. I spend a lot of time posting on a forum with people who actually relate to me, and it has made me realize quite a few patterns in my life. I never really paid much attention to my moods [...]
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
so i met with the pdoc..and he explained that he was going to create a treatment plan for my doc to follow..did an evaluation and gave me a dx. He thinks it’s a good idea for me to jump on the lithium train. so per instructions the seroquel and the cymbalta have been stopped and [...]
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
i finally landed an appointment with a new psychiatrist. and of course i did some research on the guy. i wasn’t able to find any reviews regarding psychiatry, but he is very active politically regarding health care. i’m not a fan of politics, so i’m really hoping he keeps that separate from our sessions. my [...]
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
i visited my gp today for refills, and also mentioned my fear of being completely coherent for my upcoming surgery and i feel blown off. i know i should be working on coping mechanisms for my anxiety, but it’s making me physically ill. is there not something we can do about this? a medication of [...]
Monday, December 14, 2009
i stayed up until 4am saturday morning…woke up at 740pm to get a drink and use the washroom and then slept again until 7am sunday morning. i haven’t a clue as to why this happened. perhaps my body needed more sleep then i thought. who knows. i felt like i was shaking from the inside [...]
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Friday, December 11, 2009
to me, being drunk is a loss of control. something i can’t deal with very well. i must have control over everything controllable in my life. even if i’m bad at it, i still have to be in control. i don’t know where this comes from..but it’s something i hope to overcome..or learn to control [...]
i’ve been feeling like i’m going to crawl out of my skin lately. today i attempted to dance to my very own version of “it’s getting hot in here”…completely inappropriate in a Starbucks full of mommies with strollers. at first i thought it may have been my caffeine intake..so i cut that in half two [...]
i chose beer tonight over seroquel..and i feel like shit. i don’t do the beer thing often, maybe once a month. but i always feel like crappola and i never learn. i’m scared shitless to just take the seroquel like normal. the last time i did that i ended up hugging the toilet at the [...]
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