i phoned the pdoc to be sure that what i was feeling was ok..and i’m still waiting for a call back. i see my gp on friday, so i’ll talk to her about it as well. i’m really concerned and confused at the same time..because the withdrawal symptoms for seroquel and cymbalta are very similar to lithium toxicity. i’m pretty sure that’s not the case, as i’m still at a very very low dose. blood has been drawn and i haven’t got that call telling me to stop..so yeah.

i found out today that all of my disability stuff has been gone about the wrong way, and now my pay is going to be delayed even more. it’s likely i’ll be back to work before i see any money.

i went out to meet a friend today and was feeling freakishly paro. the man sitting across from me on the subway was staring me down..and the train was stuck in between stations..i thought he was going to mug me..and take my pot, or something else scary.  i started to get scared and anxious. so i sat there watching him out of the corner of my eye until he finally left. but i couldn’t shake the feeling..it was killing me. i felt like if i didn’t get home soon i was going to freak out and have to call a cab instead..

i’ve been trying to come up with words to describe how i’ve been feeling lately..and i guess the best way to describe it is outside looking in..on myself.

she also put me on 25mg of trazedone to help me sleep.  because i always seem to have issues sleeping when i’m on cymbalta, but cymbalta also elevates my mood a little since the seroquel makes me as dull as i don’t know a doorknob..?

i really think it’s time for a pdoc..

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